why is it so hard?

It's killing me,now!
what to do then?I don't know.
just realized something as BOOM!
really wanna boom right now.

seems like lose everything.
know what?such a loser!
I can't accept the truth

I watched a nice movie.
it's about an ambulance girl.
it taught me,
if i m not mistaken,she said,
fear is a hologram,
but if we clear our fear and go on,
we realized,fear is just an illusion.
I strongly agree. :)

Trouble,just a part and parcel of our life.
it makes us grow stronger,maturer...
anything~I don't know.
Just want to live my life just the way I am.
better let bygones by bygones~

I used to be like that.
I don't want to be like that anymore.
but now,the bastard forces me to behave like this !
I always respect him.always do.

whatever happens,I try to chill out.
not calm down.I cant.
better sleep.the best cure~